Wednesday, March 4, 2015

The Reason (to you from all your rescue dogs)

I would've died that day if not for you.
I would've given up on life if not for your kind eyes.
I would've used my teeth in fear if not for your gentle hands.
I would have left this life believing that all humans don't care
Believing there is no such thing as fur that isn't matted
skin that isn't flea bitten
good food and enough of it
beds to sleep on
someone to love me
to show me I deserve love just because I exist.
Your kind eyes, your loving smile, your gentle hands
Your big heart saved me...
You saved me from the terror of the pound,
Soothing away the memories of my old life.
You have taught me what it means to be loved.
I have seen you do the same for other dogs like me.
I have heard you ask yourself in times of despair
Why you do it
When there is no more money, no more room, no more homes
You open your heart a little bigger, stretch the money a little tighter
Make just a little more save one more like me.
I tell you with the gratitude and love that shines in my eyes
In the best way I know how
Reminding you why you go on trying.
I am the reason
The dogs before me are the reason
As are the ones who come after.
Our lives would've been wasted, our love never given
We would die if not for you 
I seriously need to go home and hug my dogs.
Smiley from Millan.Net

Tuesday, January 13, 2015

Back to working out

I've lost a lot of weight. I'm 3 pounds from where I wanted to be but if I stay at this weight, I'll be happy.  Here's a before and after picture.  The After photo is blurry but you get the idea.

I'm still thick around the middle and need overall toning, so I started working out again. I'm hoping I don't put pounds on from the exercise because I really like wearing clothes that I couldn't fit into for years.   From Millan.Net

Wednesday, November 19, 2014

Mom's recipes

My brother has been putting together a book of family recipes. Luckily, my aunt found where my mom wrote down her spaghetti sauce. It's the only time she wrote it down. I'm so glad because I couldn't get it right; here I was missing some key ingredients and cooked it too fast.

It hit me though to see her handwriting again. And then to finally to taste it that sauce again.

It brought her closer. I remembered the one time she taught me how to make it but I didn't get it all written down. It chokes me up to see her writing and the Love, Doris.

I miss you, Mom, but this gave me good memories.

Wednesday, October 29, 2014

I'm such a sap

Something is seriously wrong with me because I choke up every time I listen to this Disney song. Walt's words in the beginning do me in and it just gets to me. But I've listen to it 5 times in a row so far and still get all a lump in my throat. I'm such a goober. From Millan.Net

(Case you're interested: it's originally from Brother Bear but became the theme song for the 50th celebration)

Sunday, October 26, 2014

I'm so upset and FURIOUS because of

If you've been on my blog & seen my Disney trips, you know I do a webcam. I've been doing it for years using Ustream.  I went to download the videos from some trips to make DVDs.

They deleted all my videos! YEARS of them!!

They made a decision that Basic accounts don't get to keep their videos longer for 30 days; you have to upgrade storage for $20/month or go Premium for $100/month to $1,000/month!

Before you yell at me: YES, they have the absolute right to do this change. BUT! THEY SHOULD HAVE TOLD ME! WARN ME BEFORE YOU DELETE MY VIDEOS!

I would have considered the $20/month. Not now. Now I'm looking for another webcam streaming provider with good customer service ratings and clear policies. I'm fine with downloading my videos by a certain deadline, just let me know before you delete them!

Tuesday, October 7, 2014

Long Beach Island

I went to LBI with my sisters Gerry and Cathi a little bit ago. What a great time! We saw family favorites from when we went every summer growing up and when my mom was still alive.  I climbed to the top of Barnegat Light House and got a certificate. :)

Cathi and Gerry had never seen the family bench dedicated to my Nana, Mom, and Aunt DeeDee, so that was first thing we did.

We had a nice dinner at a place in Bay Village that looked over the bay. I got a present from Gerry: a print that I can't wait to hang up. We went from one end of the island to the other, ending with us sitting on a bench looking at the stars and the ocean before we left for home.

Just a beautiful day.

Wednesday, September 17, 2014

I hate feeling stupid...

and I hate being made to look stupid.

I know I shouldn't let things or people get to me. Unfortunately they do.

Right now for example: something is really screwed on my company's WordPress pages. I can't even get into the admin page. I've done everything I can think of and put posts on the forum. But nothing I tried work and no one has replied. Now our clients are complaining and I don't know what to do.

As for being made to look stupid, I was told some facts and passed them on. Ends up I was wrong so I feel like an idiot for repeating them. I also hate that all these haters jump on the wagon to slam me and others about how much we suck because of these kind of mistakes.

One of these things ended up being true. The sad thing is: I'm so glad I didn't make a mistake and make a fool of myself that even though the thing is negative, I feel good.

People seriously need to get lives and I seriously need to find a way to let these things go.